what is life actually? the world's most annoying question.
our past, our future, the time today known as present
what should we reach, is it dream? is it a reason?
this is where it all started,
i just wake up this morning, i sense that my back feels hurt and so as my neck. i tried to reach my phone right beside me, and i text my girlfriend a simple "good morning". just about 2-3 minutes later, she answered. i'm happy. this is where i realize one thing about human being, they like being responses. more than giving a response to another human being, they like it more when they just got their responses without too much trying to get a response. this is what i called "the selfishity"
it's not bad to have this selfishity. it's nature, it's what we are. we called that big ugly creature a monster, though actually we are the really monster who managed to kill them. outsmarted them with our brain, we have to feel lucky we are smarter than other creature. it is natural that all people are being selfish, though they're nice but they're still having a desire to feel nice about themselves. that could be categorized as another selfish :)
i'm not blaming, i'm not judging. it's right, as long as we understand why we're selfish. there are people who really want to be a leader, people who likes being noticed (even by doing bad things) or people who prefers to be alone and not socialize. it's all about our past and future. what had happened in our past, and what will happen in our future.
understanding is different with just knowing. it's like when you know, you don't really understand. most of people i met, they know what's their past and know what their future will be. but rarely i find people who understand why they're like that. most people just dont care enough to understand why they live, that's why the rate of stressed people has reached 80% in all over the world.
to understand, to learn what life they have, peace is just you.
understand what you had in your past, why'd you do that and why'd you feel that. there's gonna be a reason for everything, even for your future which actually not there yet to see. everything happen for a reason, it is actually your choice to live to understand or to live in your dream world? what's gonna be?
in his computer, Panda
